Old Houses Like Memories
by Christopher Clagg
The house was old and mildewed and sat, at least a hundred years old,
maybe
older, on the hill into the once prosperous town of Milton. But had since
gone to ruin and overgrowth and dimmed windows crusted with dust that
looked
out now on empty streets and vacant lots where once children had run and
played baseball.
The town was haunted, though there was no one to know it. Except perhaps
the
birds that lined the elms along Franklin Street, or the wild dogs that
lived
in the watershed at the edge of the broken down bakery plant over on
Carson
where the dirt road had once been pavement and had run all the way to the
Lancaster onramp for the new freeway fifty years before.
Until the docks downstream on the Missouri had expanded and had taken all
the
traffic that had once run on the paved road. And the years of neglect had
settled in and the road had gone back to dust and dirt and intersected on
the
east side of the old town where the Canton house sat.
And days were empty stretches of heat and silence and the background sound
of
insects chirping. Crickets rubbing their legs together and the sound of
straw
grass blowing in the hot wind and rocks sometimes cracking it got so
hot.
Nights were cold, and full of owls hooting, full of bats at the edge of
fruit
trees and baying dogs. The house would sit, door locked as it had sat
locked
since Claire Henderson had lived in it and raised her children and patted
their bottoms in the morning when they didn't want to get up and go to
school, or hug them and kiss them and press her lips to boo-boos when they
fell down and skinned their fingers or their knees.
Her hair had been red. As red as the carpet in the living room that Rance,
her husband had filled the house with when he bought the house and married
her and brought her there and they went in and up the stairs to the top of
the old victorian staircase to the top bedroom and made love like romance
novels always tell us that lovers do.
The wind blew in the old house through cracks in the glass, that let in
rain
and wind and the old carpet is stained now and full of moss and decay, but
the memories still cling to the wallpaper in the hallways and in the
upper
rooms where Claire had called her children so often, that after fifty
years
gone to the Lord, you could almost still hear her voice and the sound of
her
whispered lullabys to the babies.
Down stairs Rance would sit with a paper and read the news of the first
world
war, and later, his children grown and with children of their own would
come
out and sit on the old dried couch and chairs downstairs while their wives
would try and decide what to do with all the old boxes in the attic after
the
funeral, and whether or not they could take it all. And what they would do
with it if they did.
And here and there is the scrape of a heel on the walk outside, an almost
sound that is sure to make it into a scary story if it were heard. But it
is
only the memory of Standish, who was Rance's oldest son, pacing his grief
on
the porch when his son Clement had not come home from the war.
The pacing and pacing.
The sound of the hurt and the sound of branches rubbing in the cold
evening
wind and the house settling and the glass tinging as it sometimes did when
it
got so cold that the glass seemed to pop.
All those sounds rising in the evening like an almost Chaikovsky sonnata
that
is played for piano.
Claire had played.
But none of her children learned and so the instrument sat in the living
room
of the old house and the strings popped in the dry heat after the years
went
by until there wasn't a string left in the old grand that wasn't broken.
But with day, the silence of the heat settled down again, leaving the old
sounds, the creaking sounds, the almost and once were sounds all left for
the
almost night, when we could almost remember all those years ago.
But even birds will migrate, and the wild dogs grow old and die and the
bushes out beyond the old bakery are empty now and the walls are so thin
and
crumbled down that not even the dust is young enough to remember any
more.
And that perhaps is the saddest part.
That those old memories are gone, even the wind is a new wind, full of
ocean
promises out of the far west.
California! Says the wind loud and rushing down the middle of the
country.
In the new towns and old towns. But mostly in the new towns where new
memories move and settle and grow and breath and catch their fill of
smiles
and daylights and nights where a young man bends on his knee before a
young
girl with red hair and opens a box with a ring in it and asks for her
hand.
The girls name isn't Claire, and she doesn't marry the boy, but another
one,
ten years on and they try three times to get pregnant but are unable and
finally frustrated and feeling almost defeated they adopt.
And she holds her new ten year old son in her arms as night comes on and
sings to him.
Lullabys.
And even the wind remembers then.
And would smile if wind could smile. When the young mother kisses her
son's
forhead and he falls asleep with her arms around him. And is secure.
And loved.
And he never goes to war.
But sings songs to his son's and the wind remembers.
And he remembers.
And he strokes the red hair of his daughter as he sits in an apartment a
thousand miles from Milton.
But feels the same as Claire and her husband Rance did. And all their
children and their childrens children scattered out so far that we have
lost
count.
But that is alright.
We still love them, even though they've gone out and away.
The wind blows.
And almost sounds like a whisper, sometimes.
But maybe that is just imagination.
Do ya think?
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